funny enough when i woke up this morning,i thought to myself... Oh snap!! July's over, August's beginning. Closer to school resumption. At first,i had happy feelings run through me and as the minutes ticked... I wasnt in the mood to think about school anymore. . .

I thought about wt the rest of the year would hold for me. So i decided to check my facebook homepage and i see lots of people with new month greetings as their status and am like: serz?????? Wts so frigging new bout d month?

Does dt mean the almost sad grades I got last semester would vanish or my problems would disappear or that that trip I have been wanting to take would actually happen. Suffice to say, this morning I had lost all hope there was to have in the spirit of the ''new month''i

But then that all had changed by the time I got back from church...

Church was fun today...eery one was in a gd mood and the pastor was his usual jovial self. At some point in time during his sermon,i started to doze off a bit buh I got it together after a while. And then I really listened to what he was sayin and I felt it was one of those messages that u'll feel were jst meant for you. That's how it felt.

The prayer session came and I felt smthn move within me... It was almost a force. I poured out my heart to God and I could feel the weight being pulled away from me..the residual sadness I was feeling was gone and I felt a whole lot lighter.

At the end of the prayer session, I was able to vouch for myself that it was the beginning or a new month and it is going to be a new beginning.

Happy new month
xoxx

ONE TREE HILL!!!

this is one of my all time famous and ultra cool drama series... i was soo glad when i heard that they were gonna continue with season 8. You can check out season 8 spoilers or u cn check out the one tree hill blog mostly manned by amy@onetreehillblog.com
xoxc

somethn to think about

They say jealousy can be a good thing in every relationship buh when it starts to cause interruptions in ur happiness,yhu need to check urself.

like someone whose opinion I trust a 100%,u cannot act self righteous in a relationship. Yhu cannot claim being d innocent one all d time. Fact, ur partner is more open about wt he/she does. . .can the same be said about you? Another fact, what you don't know in a relationship is better than what u do know and hurt urself about.

They say one day all dirty linens would be brought out to wash. When this day comes. . .how much stain would u have on urs?

xoxx

thinking to myself. . .

Being in love can make you do so much and accept so much. Its a given now,to make a relationship work,you ve to give a little of yourself. If you dnt,you'l continue to point fingers and never make things work and end up alone.
Case point,say two friends who hit it off from the first joe get to hit a rock later on. Accusing each other might bring a lil sense of relief but it driver them only further from each other. Even when they are able to sort it out,the probability of that friendship returning to normal is very minimal. . .
All in all,in relating to people and ensuring u dnt end up living alone wt 10 cats,you ve to give a little n accept wteva fault you might have.

my maama

My mums birthday is coming, she's gettin a tad older. Lol,which reminds me of when she celebrated ha 50birthday. She pulled out all stops n spared no expense. . .Now dt is smthn i am definitely looking forward to when its my turn :-) *my husband should pls take note*
Anyways,so another july forth is coming,did i mention its d same day as us independence,and we're supposed to show how much we love n appreciate her. Myself n my sisters,with little help from my brothers try to figure how best to show our mum that we're ''good'' kids. Lol
At the moment,production is still on. Although i feel plannin only a few ideas will have less of the desired effect.

'give it up for the woman'

There's the saying about how women should feel empowered and be independent in their own ryt and I totally agree wt dt... We,women should be independent,we should be able to fend for ourselves. Buh at d same time I can voucher that eery woman won't mind living off a male's work while she would still expect to be treated as miss independent.

Take for instance,an average nigerian wife who is holding up a job of her own and has a husband who has an amazing job dt brings in most of the revenue. When it comes down to it,said woman would naturally relish taking the husband's new ryd to work jst to show off a bit to her co-workers. Said woman would on the average want to spend less for d family cs she thinks to herself 'he makes more than I do so he should be able to foot more than half of the bills...afterall,he is the man of the house'. And it is this mentality dt creates a whole lot of wahala for use women... We say we wanna be independent,yet we bring trouble on ourselves.

A lady who enjoys a guy buying her flowers,taking her to dinner,showering her with wonderful gifts also expects her man to take out the trash,check to see if a burglar's broken into d apartment if she hears a noise downstairs,take care of d cars,mowing the lawn. . .yhu get the drift...

Such a woman should nt be disappointed when the man expects her to clean for him,wash his dirt,cook for him,please him and generally make him happy. She has not right to say she's empowered and independent because she should be able to take what she is dishing out.

Something I have realized is that whyl it may take a long time for men to mature into their own and make smthn ryt for them, it takes women a shorter time and its like all females go through phases...we all want one thing and also want everything.

Once men get some things once, it sticks wt em buh wt women... We set too much principles around ourselves and we usually over assume wt we want and wn it doesn't happen, we gt saucy and defensive

Don't get me wrong, am not sayin the men folk are the smartest...truth be told,some of em really are goof balls and low-lives buh d point is,

An independent woman is not totally independent until she makes herself believe that she can survive without the opposite sex!

Ve a good day
xoxx
signed: t33n trYiN tO taK3 on her WorLd

''tHe OuTHer CirCl3''

How we are seen by other people is way different from the way we see ourselves. Take for instance,two people to u make make absolute no sense buh to each other...those two can never be separated as friends.

I was watching an episode of House the other day and it was about d diagnosis of a woman who is so up to date on ha blog as in ha whole life is on it...much to d annoyance of ha boyfriend. As I was watching d episode,i found myself being vexed on behalf of d guy cs evn wn d doctors told ha she was dying n needed a heart valve which cud either be pig or plastic,she decided to turn to ha blog! Imagine how vexed I was. Buh I noticed d guy was only mad for a bit because he already accepted her as who she was. Eventually,the babe was saved,she and ha partner still loved each oda,she stil posted it on ha blog and she went for d pig valve.lol..

My point is while I was almost angry that she would tell every single detail about her life on a blog rather than tell her partner, and me being annoyed at d partner for not making ha stop her bad habit, I realize that my opinion is just by the side. The boyfriend has accepted her,hook line and baggage and still loves her for it,no matter her choice in revealing their domestic turmoils.

We only find console in the fact that we love and we are loved in return. People may not accept how we handle our relationships wt our family,our friends our neighbours and so on buh one thing we'll realise is that whatever their opinion is, its in d outer circle. . .
Goodnyt. Mwaaahs

More babbling...#2

Had a couple of rough weeks and I wasn't able to blog...it wasn't so pretty...here's a lil of wt I was thinkin...

@13 april 2010
As I sit down to study,i wonder if this is all my life really is all about. As I try to fight sleep, I wonder if being a student is all dt its cracked up to b and I realise, its far much more than I can see.
I hurt a friend of mine today and I am deeply sorry about it buh I couldn't bring my mouth to tell ha wt she wanted to hear or wt did not seem ryt. I cannot lie to those I care about.
My conscience cannot take a lot of evil n wicked intentions. Buh I wonder,with all d drama and politics going on in this school,i find my self lost @ times... Time to head back to d books.

@15 april 2010
Why would this happen...after I had high hopes...why is this man trying to make me hate him after am tryin so hard not to.what did I do wrong in d midsemester dt I ve to score dt low.just after lamenting the grade I got in my last semester...wt hope am I supposed to ve for gttn an a in this course now... Its not fair!!and its nt as if am not tryin my best. I hate this...why is this whole tin tormenting me this way... I feel tears on d brim of my eyes and I feel like letting the tears flow...i noe I don't deserve this buh I will move on. Better to noe my mistakes now than in d exam hall...should ve known today won't be such a good day...I just wanna block out d world :-( :-( no one can help me... *sobbing inside*


Today @20 april 2010
The first was bout me gttn ready for d exams and tryin to get my study on and d second was bout me seeing one of my mid semester...i just noe dt d lecturer has done me a rili big strong tin

Anyways,am over all dt now...now chilling wt my babe and tryin to focus on d things ahead

xoxo... #teenager tryin to take over on d move. Lol

P33r pRes5u're

Ok,so I should start taking this blog things more seriously ryt?????? Anyways,bin a min...as usual so much has been happening buh really,whose life is as smooth as a baby's bum....yeah ryt
Am still tryin to be dt kid hu wants to be a major world market player and tryin to take over my world buh I always seem to get sidetracked. If its not friends,its books,if its not books,its family and d circle keeps on turning..
Sometimes I tire myself wt d effort I put up to make sure d superficial physical aspect of my life is still rockin...yh,i noe:peer pressure
I think to myself dt while I do not totally succumb to peer pressure,a lot of it still gets to me.i could bet a million dollars if I had em dt as u reading this,some oda babe is having my same line of thought and dt gives me comfort...
So I noe am still a rocking teenager tryin to take over my world... I still got time!!!

Me n my babbles: its easter

Ok,so I wrote this a while back buh guess ve been too busy to come put it up ere...my easter was sooo boring
I noe its d season my savior died and all dt buh this year things felt different...b4 I jump d gun,here's wt I been on so far

I noe its been a while since I wrote smthn..dnt mean I dint missed writing buh as my usual sayin goes,there's neva enough time. And lawd knows so much has happened in d past few days dt I wonder if my life is some kind of script n am d leading lady
I wanna stop nagging cs a second ago I was gonna write...skl is such a bore!!buh lets skip dt...
This weekend finally am outta skl!!i am sooo happy I left cs d chokehold in skl was gttn under my skin plus I think I just needed a break in my thoughts circulating over the same old things
Thankfully I can do dt @ home...staying @ home and conducting one of my favorite past times has made me realise dt I have actually changed!
To say whether the change is good or bad...dt I cannot be sure of buh I noe dt I can't change d past buh I sure as I can make do wt my present and my future.

*sigh+me*

Woke up this morning to another semi argument. Me I dnt noe wt to do o. Isn't wt is good for the goose always good for the gander. I hate pointing fingers buh in this situation what can I do. I dnt wanna make things more difficult for us buh then again isn't it a two way thing.

Life jst messes wt wteva u ve in mind. Sometime I wish I cud be given the power to read people's mind cs Dts d concept dt I always find hard to grasp. U can only see the physical buh u can neva noe Wts goin on underneath. I wonder if the gd thots I ve r the kind dt r being reciprocated to me or if like the say...'there are (actually) two sides to a coin'

Buh then again, if I knew wt the oda person was thinkin...where would all the mystery be. I think trust is a concept we all try to gt a hold of alongside faith. Everyone is a result of some other person. We all need each oda buh wn disappointments happen, its d next thing to heartbreak. Other than that,there really isn't any other thing dt can be man's weakness aside emotions


**** crazed thoughts of a teenager trying to take on her world ****

Feelings

This is from the best most amazing man in the world (aside my pops) and it means more to me than he can imagine. Love u babe.

Read on:

Definitely, no relationship is a success without quarrels. Some even say; quarrels make relationships stronger but on a personal perspective, I don't totally agree with that. One can only try to avoid them (quarrels) but in the end, it is inevitable. What matters the most is not the number of quarrels a couple have but how they resolve it and use its effects in a positive way and not storing the effects for a future mishap. Storing up quarrel effects only bring about a worrysome aftermath which will be characterized by accusations, more quarrels, hate, sometimes deciet and had I known's. For one to boldly say he or she is in a relationship, that individual must be able to understand that now, two things are always involved which is "my thought" & "her thought". When you take the two into consideration before making decisions, things go smoothly but when the reverse is the case, quarrels are bound to surface. A lot of people misunderstand this especially the guys so they rather not consult the girl but instead, take actions believing they are right all the way. Fine, he may be right but in most cases, the guys are usualy wrong. Baby, I know most times, I fall short of your expectations, I go contrary to even my own rules concerning you. I'm not gonna give the excuse of me being human anymore, only losers always look for excuses. I take full responsibility for all my wrong doings, mistakes and mishaps. I wanna be that man u dream of, I wanna fill that space in ur heart reserved only for the one true survivor that will stand the test of time through thick and thin. I may not be able to make a lot of things happen financially but I promise you babe, my strong will will always bring forth light at the end of the tunnel. All these and many more just to keep you smiling for the rest of your blissful life not only cos you are my girl but cos even without me, u deserve the best. Even when you came with me to see my mum, on one hand, I was scared but I had to somehow brace up cos I knew it was for the greater good. You were excellent that day babe. On the other hand, I love you too much to let you go so I'm speaking for myself. If I keep going on, I'd only keep u reading for minutes and the note might finally lose its bearing so i'mma stop here and let u ponder on these words. If u feel I deserve a hug, I'm open for the exchange. Happy Valentine sweetheart. I love you. Melveen!!!!!

first or second

never used to think being in a relationship could drive sme1 crazy till i fell in love and now... am a firm believer!!!anyways so am away from skl ryt now at a conference for my leadership group called g15. we supposed to go get some major seminnar shiz-nit done. its supposed to be crazy, buh ryt now would swap this wwekend to be with melvin and be in skl wt him. went out tonight wt my frnds to get some supper buh my tot just kept driftn to him...think my frnds noticed. just wish he was ere dts all. buh its all good. amma try and gt my behind more focused and either the first or second.... amma still keep @ it.

February daze

back to my take over the world routine'
Been wondering how amma 'make' mai swag higher. Its takin a process buh its going good... Lol

Ryt now,am writing this blog in my financial accounting class seating inbetween chingy and becky... Came in late so I missed my spot on d first row........ Hence,my ability to write a blog in class.

Skl's gttn borin...having to wake up each morning n jst feel lazy bout comin for classes........

But how am I supposed to take over if I don't?

This new year has been fun so far, celebrated a new cousin, new frnds, new gist..lol and skl has been a major preoccupation.

But its not like things ve been perfectly smooth.... At times I wonder if there are things beta left ignored buh then I think about it and m like... Naaa,no way

My frnds in skl have been radio and most of wt pple gt to tell me is how they wanna be outta skl and be their own people. Which is a good thing.

Like me, a lot of pple have dreams so we singing 'look out world, we taking over' sooo loving it.


Anyways,need to gt my head back in class

So much drama

You guys would not believe wt has been happening... Sooo not the drama!!! From pappaz forming in registration lines to having pressure about results to relationship stress. Its been crazy buh still loving every bit.
Its been so much fun,wish I could write all about it now buh m in a hurry. Need to talk to my babe
Mwaaahs

Juicy BitS

decided that when i have been down and tired...sleeping always helps buh we all noe dt more sleep just makes you weak so i decided to come up with smthn new...wanna noe it? you'l be the first to noe when i find out what it is...lol

My C0unTrY; mY Hom3

Its been over 45 days and My President has been outta the country. at first we were told that he had to go for him check-up (see he has this health issue)and usually when he goes; tops he's back after a few weeks buh this time around he's been gone over a month

soo many people have been giving ideas bout what is going on...some say that he's prob dead n they tryin to "cover" it up, some said he prob just ended in some coma.... cs of his absence, naija bein the country that it is...oh my days HAv3 people come up wt their own way to cov3r ther butts (sowi, behinds). news started spreading like wildfire that ther president was signing million dollar contracts and receiving some "special" visitors. guess the pple weren't satisfied with that just yet. we want to see our President... the dude dint evn hand over to his deputy >>>typical naija man<<<<

SiD3 JoK3: the V.P, thats Goodluck Jonathan was formally the deputy gov in one of the states until the first man in the state had to step down and Mr. Goodluck had to take over...
then it was time for the Presidential elections and our Mr. Goodluck decides to run for vice....see wts happenin now...the first man in Nigeria is AWOL.
M0ral L355on: neva trust someone wt d name Goodluck!!! LOL

My Mu5inGs:
Mr. President betta come back fast cs naija is a country thats still pretty much a baby and there is just that instilled greed in eacha nd every one us... am afraid if left alone...its preety much gonna be every man for himself. we got soo many problems, sooo little time. no one wants to do the dirty work... evn if a group of pple start; they get discouraged on the way and then what happens?

we end up in the same place where we started... But then again. what do i know... its just the musings of a teenager trying to take on the world!!! :-)

What If Sept 11 Was In Naija????

A political aspirant was asked the question during one of those debates,

QUIZ:
After the tragedy in New York and Washington September 11, the question arises: WHAT WILL HAPPEN IF NIGERIA IS ATTACKED?

ANSWER:
Well ... if that happens, there can be no comparison. That's because in Nigeria we are
much better prepared for these kind of attacks, given the following reasons:

1. We do not construct exaggerated elevated buildings.

2. We all get on the job late in the morning, so at 8.45am there won't be sufficient
people to kill.

3. Fire fighters and police officers will do their utmost not to get to the spot in time.
They will reach there just when everything is over, so there will be no casualties among
them.

4. The Nigeria airways would surely have fouled up the terrorists' plans by being delayed
again, and of course losing the luggage - containing the bombs.

5. A Nigerian would not have used his cell phone to call home. He would've hit the
terrorist with it over the head.

6. If a terrorist was living for one year in Nigeria (Oshodi), he would've been robbed
and molested so many times he would've given up and gone back home long time ago.

7. In Nigeria the terrorists would not have gotten the flight manual, they would've had
to pay for it.

8. In Nigeria "Egbe" (juju) go don make all the passengers disappear before the thing
hit Mushin or Ajegunle.

You see...in Nigeria we are well prepared.

The v3rY be8inn1nG

its a new year ryt? so that should mean new things as well... i have decided to live. live not only in the sense that i would exist but in the sense that i would make my own decsions and not let the views of "some people" get to me. over the few years that i ihave been alive; dare i say that i have always tried to be a good gurl. true.. wn i was little, i was one of the cutest things you eva did see...i was the daddy's gurl, the one people wanted to be friends with.

buh then it hit: Pub3rTy!!! oh my days, a lot of people fantasize bout how radical they were gonna be and of course, i thought of that as well that i could continue in my dream world buh when i got out there; i realised that it just wasnt me anymore... there were a while lot of other gurls who wanted what i wanted and then...

SurVivaL of tHe Fitt35t!!!






As the years went by, i thought i was fighting a losing battle because i found out that a lot of people would do aaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnyyyyyyyything to get what they wanted and they couldnt be bothered about how it affects you... my relationships with people couldnt be trusted...everytime i made a new friend...i always wondered how long that was gonna last and what i would lose @ the end of it/

i made soo many changes in my life to be the good gurl, gurl next door, the evil one, the bad gurl and still pretty much almost always end up in the same place buh here i am again... Good thing i don't give up easily.. i deceide its time to try and take over my WORLD again...

i hope i get things rght this time!!!!


HAppY nEw Y3aR!!!!